All The Way

There Are Secrets Inside My Heart

That My Lips And Eyes Are Forbidden To Say

Throughout The Ups And Downs Of Life

You Were Always On My Mind, All The Way!

During The Darkest Of Night I Have Seen

I Had Courage To Hope For Brighter Next Day

Even When I Was Hopeless, Down Or Written Off

You Were With Me, Always... All The Way!

Oldest I've Ever Been!

Yup! I get a day older today... a day as well as a year. And I have enough gray hairs to prove that. But with that said, my memory has not failed as I catch up old age. As far as I know today is the oldest I have ever been! I hope I am not only adding age but getting a little (if not much) wise as well.

Happy birthday ol'fart!

Happy Birthday Sabina!!!

I never had and will never have any doubt that God has blessed me with the best sister that he ever made. And truth be told, I hate it when my cousins try to get close to her as if she is their 'own' sister. I am fine sharing her with my elder brother, but besides him, no one else! 

When we were growing up we had epic fights, between her and me, my elder brother is an angel child... I hated her. But that's the best part of growing up with siblings, right? Once she got married, everything changed. She is my best friend along with my elder brother. There are only few people whom I usually don;t say "No!", they are among those few. So, if I ever say 'no' and you want to hear a 'yes' from me, probably they can help! And, the only difference between us is the birth date, just 4 days apart! But close enough! And if you didn;t know, she is the main reason why I came to the States.

It's Nepalese New Year today, but I won;t celebrate! Why? Why should I? I will celebrate my sisters birthday, she is more important to me than anything else... but this time we will be celebrating it a week after, together... Mamu, will be here in 10 days! Need we ask for more?

Happy Birthday Sabina!!! I luff you, always have.

Post script: Okay just not to sound selfish, I wish all my fellow countrymen a wonderful new year! God bless.

The Special Dozen

Back in December I was thinking about writing something about each and every single friend of mine from my MBA class in this blog, but for some reasons known and unknown I was unable to. But today, I finally got the urge to write it down... and believe me that's one of the best thing I am doing, at least I feel so... I am not sure if I will be able to remember all those wonderful moments I shared with them, but whenever I would, I will get it updated here for sure. Even at this very moment I am stuck with a smile of excitement, and I know, without exception, when I am old and going through these blog posts, this one will bring back all those moments and the smile along!

What If It Means ...

D-Day : What If Rasmussen

I was going through the snaps on my phone from my MBA days yesterday... what a wonderful bunch of friends I have and what a wonderful time I had with them... precious! It took time for me to mix-up with them for obvious reasons, the introvert that I was, my shyness and I was in a foreign land!

During my last two semesters we were a close knit group, almost. And being the only international student in the class... besides Dirty V, who has a self declared multi-national citizen (American, Swiss and Italian) I had planned to gift all of my friends with something that will remind them of my country and me as well. So, I got few stuffs from eBay, basically Buddhist/Tibetan stuffs and presented it to few of them, if not everyone at that moment. Since all of those gifts had Tibetan inscriptions, I decided to gift my remaining friends with something in the same line.

My parents were visiting us in November, so I asked my brother to send some Tibetan rings and stone pendants for my friends with them. They were not as perfect as I had expected, and it felt awkward giving away rings (not ear-rings) to friends, so I decided to give away those stone pendants which basically had 'Om Mani Padme Hum' inscribed in it. What does that exactly mean, even I am not sure. I looked up in Google to find the meaning, but it was vague, kind of.

So, one day while we were in our MBA office, I start handing it over to my friends over their tables. Steffan got the first pick, then Josh, Sean and Sarah. After they were done selecting, Steffan thanked me for the gift and asked what does those inscriptions meant? I replied, "I am not sure but it is something about peace and all. I can send you the link about its meaning." Then Sarah adds, "What if it means, you people suck!", with her trademark big smile! Everyone erupts in laughter. Then I added, "How did you know that? Do you know Tibetan?"

Angelface

Happy Our Prayers Were Answered

Indebted To Lord, For His Grace

Thank You For All Your Kindness

Blessing Us With Something Precious

Twinkling Eyes, Little Fingers

Heart Warming Smile, That Embrace

Bundle Of Joy, Hope And Happyness

My Niece, Tiny Little Angelface!

Let The Universe Conspire

Why Do I Feel Like I;m Walking On A Barbed Wire?
As If Someone Just Set My Kingdom On Fire
Wonder Why I;m Smiling On The Top Of Pyre?
There Is Nothing Besides You That I Desire!

Falling In Love? The Consequences Are Dire
My Heart Has Decided, If It's Not You, It'll Retire!
No One Is Promised To Get What They Desire
But Still I Want The Universe To Conspire!

Embrace Me For A While

The Same Road That Brought Us Together
Is Now All Conspiring To Set Us Apart
Mercy! I Beg You For A Bit Mercy O Lord!
Why Did You Decide To Wrench My Heart?

Now Don't You Dare Try To Console Me
Saying Everything Happens For A Reason
Dumb, Stupid, Stubborn You May Call Me
But My Heart Doesn;t Change Like Season

I Ain;t Strong And My Hands Are Tied Now
I Have No Option Than Living In The Exile
Things Would Change For Good, Make Me Believe
Take A Moment And Embrace Me For A While!

Volodya Will Be Back!

Just a week back everyone's eye was set in Ukraine where President Viktor Yanukovych shelved an "association agreement" with European Union in favour of closer ties with Russia. Everyone in the West was literally 'pissed-off'. And why not? How can they imagine losing against Putin again? Remember the 'Orange Revolution' of 2004/5 when the opposition and pro-western politicians overthrew the government of current and pro-Russian president Yanukovych? But when they went back to the election in 2010, he came back to power... yes through 'fair and peaceful' election as described by the global media, their bad... the result was not what they were anticipating... too bitter to swallow!

 

Now, after showing his muscle in Ukraine, Volodya, who the western media portray as a ruthless bully, almost a Czar, kind of mafia boss, a dictator/tyrant... has all his eyes set on the Winter Olympics XXII in Sochi, in the volatile neighbourhood down south, and finish it off successfully. So, he has been quiet for a while when the protests are ongoing in the streets of Kiev... just to make sure he is done with the Olympics first. And the western media are not helping either, trying to foil every attempt by Russia to make it a success by coming up with news about lack of preparedness, Russian anti-gay right stances, half-built hotels, Pussy Riot and what not? And I doubt it to stop even after a week or so when we are done with the Olympics... but then he won't stay quiet too long.

Russia ain;t as big a power as it used to be... but with Putin at helm, you can never write them off! Putin succeeded in preventing war in Syria and saving his ally Bashar al-Assad who was written off by rest of the world, can he do the same in Ukraine? Whatever it be, there will be another proxy war in Ukraine like in Syria where the opposite sides would fight against each other as a mere pawn of the West and Russia. So the games in the Olympics might be over but there will be another one beginning soon in the western neighbourhood of Russia!

The Last Sun

The Weather Looks More Brutal This Winter
Ain;t Going Outside, Worried If I'll Freeze
As If The Days Of Snowfall Were Not Enough
The Lord Added Some Chilling Cold Breeze!

The Glowing Sun And The Clear Blue Sky
Give The Impression Of A Pretty Nice Day
Don;t Believe Your Eyes, They're Fooled
Actions Count, Not The Thing What They Say!

And... Maybe Now The Cold Is Taking Over Me
I'm Getting Goosebumps Even In Warmth Inside
I Try To Keep Myself Warm By Piling Up Clothes
It's Not Helping, Surely I Need A Place To Hide!

No Grudges I Hold Against The White Powder
But Twenties and Negatives? That Sure Ain't Fun
Since The White Circle In The Sky Ain;t Blazing
iWonder, If We've Already Witnessed The Last Sun!?!

Life Ain;t Fair

Pinning Your Hopes On A Falling Star
Praying For Peace By Wedging A War
World Never Fails To Surprise[?] Me
And I Don;t Even Need To Look Afar!

Going Through Life's Twists And Turn
I Keep Moving And Thus I Learn
Life Ain;t Fair And Never Will Be
Still At Times, iWonder... Why Me?

Could You Lend Me Your Heart?

Guess You Ain't Seeing No One
And I Guess I Am Right
I Was Ready To Take On The World
But I'm Fine Even Without A Fight!

I Don;t Have Slightest Of Clue
Why Am I Too Reluctant To Say
Afraid To Lose What I Don;t Have
A Little Scared To Move Away.

I Ain;t As Dumb As I May Look
Then, Neither Am I Street Smart
But It Would Be A Great Previlege
If You Could Lend Me Your Heart!

And I Missed You Again!

They Say When You Move Forward
Do So By Closing The Doors Behind
I've Tried And Failed Miserably
As It's The Same Door That I Find!

Not Caring About The Chilly Wind
Nor About Those Huge Piles Of Snow
Beginnings Are Harder At First
I've Been Through, And I know.

I Try Hard To Keep Myself Occupied
Aware That I Still Have Miles To Go
The Farther and Farther As I Move
The Stronger Wind Of Memories Blow.

I Got The Warmth Of Your Embrace
Under Those Black Clouds of Rain
Looked Up For The Silver Lining
And... And I Missed You Again!

I Talk To Myself

In The Silence Of The Night
When The World Is Deep Asleep
I Whisper To The Stars Above
Secrets I Find Hard To Keep.

Stupid It Is And Has Been
My Heart, All Along The Way
Decides To Fall For You Again
Nothing There, I Could Do Or Say.

Would Have Been So Different
Being Able To Decide Whom We Fall
My Case Would Be Indifferent
I Bet, You'd Always Be My Call!

World Thinks It Knows Me
But They Don;t, Not At All
Only Few Will Know The Story How
I Met You First Time, O Girl!

I Look Inside To Be Happy
So Far Succeeded Without Help
Whenever My Heart Is Too Heavy
Times Like These, I Talk To Myself!

I Sseug, M'i Gnissim Ouy

Ah! The Mile High City!
The Backyard Of The God
Blue Sky, White Mountains
Ask No More With The Lord!

Denizens flock all year round
Winter, Summer, Spring or Fall
Could There Be A Better Place?
Probably Not, That's Their Call!

It's A Beautiful Day Outside
You'll Hear Everyone Say
Ask Me? Partially I would Agree
Beautiful? Yes. Perfect? No Way!

My Sights Are All Right
I Don;t have Swings In My Mood
I Speak My Mind, Always.
For Myself, For My Own Good

In Your Absence, Everything's Imperfect
Ability, I;ve Seen In People So Few
I Guess, I Won;t Even Enjoy Paradise
Like Now, When I'm Missing You!

Wish I Am Lost

If you come across
Someone looking for me
Tell them to follow
My traces on the snow
Under the blue sky
Close to the moon
Blown away by the wind
Seeking warmth in the ice.

 

Has the sun gone to sleep?
I don;t have a clue
Tis been a while
My days begin with your smile
Don;t have much to ask
But I wish I am lost
And the world finds me
In your eyes!

I Hope We Meet Again

For some
It may sound like a wish
Not to get drenched
Without a cover
Under a torrential rain.

 

A fool
I may look like
Wishing for a wish
That has only one fate:
Ending up in vain.

 

I ain't giving up
Not even an inch
To keep intact
My dreams alive
Whatever be the pain.

 

I have met you once
Got to know you
A little bit
That ain;t enough
So, I hope we meet again.

Dream O Dream

Just a month ago
I hated to go to bed
Not because I was sad
Nor was I afraid
Reality was beautiful
Dreams? As if I cared!

 

Now I try hard to fall asleep
Even though I ain;t sad
Neither am I afraid
You are no longer around me
Closer to you I wish to be
And tis how I get!

 

I dream with eyes open
You doing all the things I do
Wish to go back to sleep often
With hope I can be with you
Tis my world now, Dream O Dream
And it revolves all around you!

Ever Caught Me Smile?

I wish you miss me too, when
I miss you & your contagious smile
If not every now and then
At least a little, just for a while.

 

Worried I am, when people ask
The reason behind my smile
To few, I tell the truth behind
For rest, I act normal for a while.

 

A lot of difference we have
Distance? Too many a mile
But, everything vanishes the moment
I think of you & your smile.

Won;t Let You Get Out Of My Head

The world outside knows all my secrets
To share it with you, I am a bit afraid
Even though not sure what future holds for me
I won;t let you get out of my head.
 

My eyes have screamed my feelings so often
Lips too reluctant, to say what is left unsaid
But even if I fail to gather courage enough
I won;t let you get out of my head.
 

Not sure if I should consider myself lucky?
To have seen an angel long before I'm dead
You're the culprit I lost my heart to
So, I can;t afford to let you get out of my head!

This Time Last Year

Don't you think that the time passes just too fast? Feels like yesterday when I first came to the States... but it's already been over 16 months...  and it's been a month since I was done with my MBA!

 

Maybe it has something to do with Einstein's 'Theory of Relativity', maybe! As I see the updates of my friends in Facebook, coming back to Laramie and going to school for new semester from Monday, I wonder if I am done with my school yet? Or do I have to be there that day to attend my classes? And it is slightly valid as well, since the university has not mailed my graduation certificate yet!

 

I had made too many trips from Laramie to Denver and vice-versa since I came here. I hated Sundays then, just because most of my trips from Denver to Laramie were set on that day. Recalling this time last year, I was here in Denver for a month after my first semester ended, and this eventual day, I had to return back... to a new apartment, new room-mates and all. And even though I was here for long, a part of me wished maybe I don't have to go... maybe the clock will take a long pause and the time will stay still... I wished! I did.

 

But here I am today, done with school and with no compulsion to make a trip to Laramie anymore. But since I am done with that burden, I am feeling like it should be fun being there at this moment, observing other student's faces on the very first day of the semester, their excitement, worries, happiness and all those emotions... I missed it when I was there, but I am sure I would get a different perspective from where I stand now... they may feel I am done with my degree and my side of world looks greener... but I feel the same about them. I didn't like going to school as such, but then I didn't hate it as well... I do miss it already now, a little bit.

 

Hope everyone of them have a memorable semester! And who knows maybe I can make a trip up there, sometime in the future! Maybe sometime this semester. You never know!